mapquest

saturday night the sign to the ginn mill pointed north. jd posed in a picture pointing south, the sign in the background. a funny shot, but the sign was too far away, too bright against the darkness and turned out blurry.

sometimes in a relationship i feel like this- like one sign pointing north, another pointing south, i'm a little blurry on the directions. i don’t know what sign to follow. i move this way, he moves the other. i think we’re both going to the same spot- we aren’t contradicting each other- we’re just maybe... reading different maps? maybe we see different routes? how do we navigate through this new territory together? are we ready to do that together? i wish there was a mapquest or googlemaps for this- i could just look up directions from 'single' to 'single plus one' and wham! there you go: take one left here, two rights there and go for a few months and there you are. happy, familiar, comfortable, routine. easy, right? 


what i am finding is that beginnings -exciting or not- are unknown and a little uncomfortable. but good. it’s fun to start something new; it’s scary to start something new. there are a lot of what ifs. a lot of comparisons. a lot of potential for amazingness. i just need to ask Him to keep me and my heart pointed in the right direction, and i know i will arrive at the right destination. i guess He is my mapquest.